By Saving Me From Suicide, God Also Saved My Soul

“At age 20, I developed severe anxiety due to my obsession with my academic studies. My desire to be the best came at the expense of my sleep, my energy, and my happiness. Because I got no sleep, I spent every day either angry or depressed. On top of that, I felt misunderstood by my friends, most of whom were busy with romantic relationships. I was deeply lonely.

Things eventually got so bad at school that I decided to kill myself. At the time, I couldn’t have cared less about my soul. I remember telling God, “I’ve made my decision. I will end my life. If you really care for me, send someone to stop me.” I then began searching the internet for painless ways to die. 

That night, heavy rain and thunder shut down the electrical power on campus. As I was sitting with my laptop, still researching suicide methods, someone knocked on my door. When I opened it, a girl I didn’t know was there, asking if I could return her lamp. She then realized she’d knocked on the wrong door. But before she could walk away, something (or Someone) told her that I was in pain. When she asked if I was okay, I was shocked. I knew that this was God – He cared for me. He had sent someone to stop me.  

Because of God’s wondrous love for me, I am alive. He saved my physical life that day and through His grace, Christ has saved my soul. He’s also walked with me through my anxieties, my depression, and even my studies. And I’ll always remember that even on my lowest and darkest day, God was there with me. “For God himself has said, ‘I will never leave you; I will never abandon you’” (Hebrews 13:5). Amen.” -Vasiliki, 25

“He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24